Last night my friends and I watched the second movie in the Superhero series going on atl where we saw the original Iron Man. You can’t go wrong with $3 movies however theater food is anything but healthy. We sat around and began talking about each other’s love life. Honestly this topic is starting to bore me. Quite honestly I’m tired of talking about my dating life or my recent break up. While it was an unfortunate incident it’s not something that I am unaccustomed to. My takeaway from it is that there are only so many lies somebody (me) can handle before they can’t tell what the truth is anymore. In the end he became somebody that I didn’t recognize at all and the only takeaway I have from that is I allowed more than I should have – giving in to my expectations rather than my standards.
Also Speed Demon contacted me after not hearing from him in awhile and sent me this song. It’s a metal cover of Taylor Swift’s song Blank Space which I love very much showing off how truly talented of a writer she is. But the band that performs it I Prevail has a name that stuck with me because in the midst of it all, it’s inevitable that we all do.
One of the things I’m reminded of is something a friend of mine wrote to me in the midst of all of this:
I wish I could say that I’m sorry things didn’t work out between you and this guy…but I’m not going to lie to you…I’m actually relieved. He was too old for you. You are a gem. You are a woman of high esteem without the vision to see your true value. I see your value…it’s not in your beauty…it’s not in the great pleasure you offer. It’s your spirit…in your being…in your essence…in your passion…in your words of meaning…
Good riddance to this swinging cock of shallow perception. Don’t be angry at him…pity his inability to see his great loss. Screw him.
And we are now over and done with it. So next up on the list was not how quick I can get back to online dating – (even though I already have a list for 2015 and two dates this weekend) but it’s going to hit home in other ways. I plan on tackling a few things this year: Organization, Health, and Finances. I’ve been spreading myself way too thin and I think the stress is finally catching up to me leading to me being despondent with my loved ones, testy and just not fun to be around with. The first thing that needs to be tackled is the daily routine.
Daily Routine Changes
Nothing becomes a routine unless you have been doing it consistently for at least 40 days. Some of these challenges are 21 days but I believe 40 means that you can get make them a habit. I’m also going to incorporate these with my little ones. Why attempt to do this change all of a sudden? Well it’s the part that my friend spoke about that says: “It’s your spirit…in your being…in your essence…in your passion…in your words of meaning…” That is what spoke to me and that is what I’m trying to cultivate. It isn’t about being obedient, submissive or holding my tongue it’s about reaching my higher purpose so that I can be happy with who I am:
- That is to be a lot more organized – better organization means less stress, more structure and more routine to get what I want done completed.
- Channel energy and creativity appropriately – this will also help relieve stress by allowing me the time for things I enjoy or to find joy in things again.
- Break away from my fear of attempting things
Here is just a sneak peek of what I’m looking at:
Better oral hygiene inin a media comped activity encouraging an oral rinse twice a day. Dr. Loretta Standley my astrologer includes flossing as a daily activity that is necessary since bad oral hygiene can be linked to other systemic health issues.
Beginning and completing the Treat Yourself Special E Course Workbook from Dr. Loretta Standley. I ordered it and never completed it.
Yoga at home – I have a yoga channel on Roku. I thin this will help in my reluctance to exercise at all.
Fitness Tracker from– Just $29 so you don’t need to break the bank.
MyFitness Pal – Today I checked out an article on healthy fast food options and opted for the barbacoa tacos for lunch without cheese,sour cream and all that other stuff. This was yummy and filling even without all the cheese and dairy.